Raison d'etre

Why is everything so purple?

As I have written about earlier, I am currently looking for my raison d’etre in this life. It is difficult for me because I am too greedy and want to do everything in life, which is just not possible. So, I have to ask myself a few fundamental questions.

I love designing stuff. The reason that I am passionate about this is because of my thirst for knowledge. I like creating things as a means to learn something else. The act of creation itself is not an end but merely the means to an end.

I am also a natural problem solver. I love puzzles, not just my own but others’ as well. So, I would love to spend the rest of my life fixing unique problems. However, problem solving is itself, not an end but another means.

The combination of these two characteristics make me a natural engineer.

I need to find a problem and apply my design skills to solving the problem. Furthermore, the problem would need to be sufficiently large so that I can spend the rest of my life devoted to chipping away at it and maybe never ever arriving at a solution (how depressing).

Now, there are a lot of pressing problems in this world that I have absolutely no interest in – e.g. environmental modulation, universal health-care, economic recession. These problems cannot be my puzzle as I will grow tired of it very quickly.

Paraphrasing House: I need to solve the puzzle – my reason to be.