I guess that I have been digressing from my blog posting in the past. On my previous blog, everyone voted overwhelmingly for me to write more personal posts and less technology and political posts. But on this new blog, I have not been sticking to this regime. So, I thought that now is a good time to start sticking to this regime. So, I will try to stick to the schedule of writing only political and technology entries on weekends only.
So, what better time to start than now. Since it’s not a weekend, I will write a personal entry today.
For several months now, I have been experiencing a lack of motivation and drive. Things have been diminishing gradually and now I’m truly feeling quite low. I don’t quite know why this is the case but I can feel the effects on my work. My number of productive days has been dropping and this is proving to be a hindrance to my writing up. Some days, I spend my whole day working in front of the computer only to write two paragraphs. On other days, I end up writing nothing.
I have tried altering my work environment to stimulate things a little. I have tried working in the department, and I have also tried working, out on the grass when the sun was out in July. But in all cases, the drop in productivity continued. I honestly don’t quite know what else I can do to increase it. As a result, I am beginning to hate my thesis and my writing. Maybe that’s the problem.
A friend of mine has asked me to come along on a holiday next week. However, seeing the lack of progress that I am making in my work, I am unlikely to do so. I really want to finish up with everything so that I can move on with my life. I feel like I am stuck in a limbo now and I hate the feeling.
PS: Sorry for the negative blog, but that’s how I feel now.
PPS: Just spent the last few hours changing the look and feel of this blog. Tada!
Sybreon Ones Nought 
I think it’s common to feel the way you feel. I woke up hating all my colleagues haha… I think I need to find more friends besides friends at workplace. Also, I am supposed to write my papers but I ended up months after months not even get past the introductions, so don’t worry, you are not alone. It is possibly the perfectionist behaviour to make sure everything must be the best that has hindered the progress. One of my other colleagues who graduated end of last year (in my opinion) wrote one of the most horrible thesis I have ever read, no sense of flow, no sense of comparison between graphs that he is explaining, and no sense of thought process, just random pasting of all his work everywhere in the thesis. Well he passed anyway and published 5 papers as well. We do it our way, but i think the key thing is just do it no matter how terrible it may turn out to be…I think…haha… 😉
Love the new look of your blog.. Pretty photos, like the ladybird one best and I like the digital signature too.. can I have one? ^-^